The evolution of personality is amazing. I used to be a rabid, outgoing extravert. I loved being around people, meeting new people, talking to people, you get the point. The past couple of years, I've seen a shift. I enjoy retreating to the quiet oasis of my home at the end of the day, and truthfully, some days, I'm happy if I never have to leave that oasis. On the airplane, I put my headphones in and plug into my iPod, engrossed in a book, or my laptop, to avoid talking to people. At work, I sigh every time the phone rings, when people come into my office - probably because I know they visit or call because they need something from me. It's exhausting. I find I get less and less from these exchanges.
However, my PhD cohort are people I can count on. They have given me sound advice and encouragement, and I know we've met for a reason. Tomorrow will be full of the old faces, but not really "my" old faces. I love our friends, but some days, I would just rather burrow in my own world, create my own destiny, and live in my own world. I know I will outgrow this, it's just a phase, and probably brought on by a job that continually demands that I hold people's livelihoods in my hands.
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